"Finding out what that "power" actually is"

There is far too much to say about my life thus far. It's been one heck of a crazy ride, but I never really think about that until someone tells me "Wow, you've been through a lot...". It's just been my life, it's normal, it's familiar, it's mine. It involves spiritual abuse, extreme rejection, patterns, narcissistic abuse, fear, train accidents, and self-sabotage, and much much more. It also involves gemstones and ancient Sufi games, pendulums, the Law of Attraction, being told that I am "extremely powerful". More recently it involves me finally stepping into who I am. Finding out what that "power" actually is. Taking control. Standing my ground, and soon to be about me taking control by letting myself go with the flow of the Universe. ^_^