Seeking to connect with true self beyond created roles

I am just getting started with Mindvalley and looking forward to my journey with the Duality Quest. I am a Buddhist and have used my Buddhist practice to transform myself, family, career, and path in life, learning to manifest my higher nature at times, so to speak. Being an ordinary person, I still have my ups and downs, along with plenty of new challenges. I am, therefore, seeking ways to live more joyfully and gracefully embrace the challenges I set forth. I am seeking to more deeply connect with my true self, rather than merely being the roles that I created. Being able to identify and change my energy patterns more readily seems to be a logical step in order to create the internal space I desire.