"I am so blessed to be here"

I've been a massage therapist for 25 yrs. I used to really get into the healing part of my work. I could really sense what the body needed and where to work. I've lost that. I also feel really dispersed now, totally ungrounded, like a leaf in the wind and totally unfocused. I don't feel interested anymore and my body really hurts. I feel like I took on others' energies which feel dirty to me. I used to be so positive and happy but now I can't remember the last time I felt joy and happiness. I feel like I lost myself and have really been searching for me the last couple of years after I noticed I was not there anymore. I watched week 1 of going into the earth (I do feel really connected to the earth, I can feel its pain when we destroy it, especially trees) and letting her heal me and feeling gratitude. I got pretty emotional and feel emotional writing this. My feet have really been painful and I felt a flow open to them. They still feel tight but I did notice that change and I felt lighter and calmer. I'm so looking forward to learning how to be in this world (I've never felt like I belonged. I've said for a long time that earth is not my zipcode). I also know when I talk to people the reception of it I get is antagonism or indifference. I know there's something in me that makes that reaction and I cannot wait to heal this thing in me! I am so blessed to be here, so so blessed. Thank you Jeffrey for helping us Gypsy Spirits get grounded xoxo