"I feel like i have a new life ahead of me"

[Life before Lifebook] It was very jumbled and I just didnt see the bigger picture; i wasnt putting anything into these areas of my life. I was just assuming that they would sort themselves out. I have never ever thought about each area in such a way, i suppose i didnt think you could do that. I will never think my old way again, its just not possible now. [After Lifebook] I feel clear and focused. A little scared. But alot of the jumbled foggy barriers have dropped away in my mind and i now have a clear strategy to success in my life. Instead of being scared, im open to be confident and learning from my successes and mistakes. I realised the areas of my life that need to be filled up with intent, action, planning and energy - health, love life and wealth. I have fallen in love with myself, which i have never done and couldnt even grasp the concept of self-love(it weirdly 'just happened' whilst watching a movie). I feel like i have a new life ahead of me; im not being ungrateful for the past 42 years because theyve been amazing and ive achieved so much. But now the chaos and exhaustion seems to have dispersed and who i am meant to be has appeared. How i wasnt dealing with my love life, i thought that was out of my control and would just happen. I didnt think you could plan it like ive well-planned other aspects of my life.