"Releasing seven generations of trauma in 30 minutes"

I Was Dealt a Hand of Nine ACEs. My Children Were Dealt None.

Before this programme, I already considered myself healed. I had spent almost three decades understanding and healing the impact of my childhood. I experienced nine Adverse Childhood Experiences (ACEs) including childhood sexual abuse, violence, alcoholism and emotional trauma. But these patterns didn't begin with me. My father had himself experienced sexual abuse. My mother struggled with alcoholism. I grew up surrounded by patterns that had travelled through my family system long before I understood what generational trauma even meant. I had made a decision that these patterns would end with me. I may have been dealt nine ACEs. My children, Lincoln and Regan, were dealt none. So when I began Manifesting Mastery, I genuinely believed I had already broken the cycle. Then came one lesson that completely floored me.

Thanks to the programme, I experienced one of the most profound emotional releases of my life during Regan Hillyer's Epigenetic Alchemy: A Generational Manifestation Journey. Regan explored the beliefs, emotions and survival patterns that can exist within our family systems and how bringing those patterns into our conscious awareness gives us something incredibly powerful: choice. During the 30-minute activation, Regan guided us through a visualisation involving seven generations backwards and seven generations forwards. At one point, I was asked to imagine my mother behind one shoulder and my father behind the other, their hands resting on me. I immediately struggled. Because when your father was your abuser and your childhood was shaped by your mother's alcoholism, their hands on your shoulders don't exactly evoke a relaxing meditation. But Regan wasn't asking me to connect with the wounded human versions of my parents. She asked me to experience them at a soul level, beyond our physical relationship and everything that had happened between us. Something inside me released. I cried, and cried, and cried. Eyes closed, tears streaming down my face. Then I turned around. I placed my hands on my parents' shoulders and imagined golden-white light travelling through them, their parents, their grandparents and generations before them. Suddenly I could see something differently.

I wasn't condoning my father's behaviour, but I could recognise that he had been abused as a child himself. My mother's alcoholism had profoundly affected my childhood. But I could see her story of pain, maladaptive coping and inherited patterns. Understanding where a pattern came from doesn't excuse it. It gives us the opportunity to stop repeating it. That was the release. I wasn't responsible for what had been handed to me. But I could choose what I handed forward. I had spent three decades healing the wounds of my own childhood. In those 30 minutes, I released the energy and the invisible force of generational trauma passed down from my ancestors.

And now, my life is lighter. I entered Manifesting Mastery thinking manifestation was predominantly about creating the future, not visiting the past. I now understand that sometimes creating a different future requires us to recognise what we have unconsciously carried from the past so we get to consciously choose how we rewrite the story. Sexual abuse. Alcoholism. Violence. Shame. Silence. Those patterns came through my family line. They don't continue through me. My greatest manifestation isn't a financial goal. Not a bigger business. Not another achievement. It's two little humans who love coming to Mindvalley with me and who are growing up with a completely different inheritance. I was dealt nine ACEs. My children were dealt none. I had already broken the cycle. But after Epigenetic Alchemy, I feel like I finally laid the past to rest. When I later shared this experience on the MVU stage in Estonia with Regan Hillyer and Vishen Lakhiani, people told me afterwards that my story had given them goosebumps. In that moment, I realised that what had transformed me could become a story that helps transform others.

There’s a reason I have manifested Mindvalley into my life and my family’s. I understand at an even deeper level what it means to be the one in my family who rewrites the pattern. And now, I am manifesting winning Expert to Authority Mastery, because I want to empower other leaders to become the one in their families too. Through my trauma-informed leadership programme, I want to share what three decades of lived experience, learning and healing have taught me about trauma, resilience and our power to choose what we manifest next. I want to support survivors who are ready to stand up and say, “It ends with me.” Because breaking generational patterns isn't only about healing ourselves. It's about changing what we hand to the generations that come next.

Per Ardua Ad Astra.