"I think I’m ready to change"

From the beginning of my life I’ve heard two phrases from my mother: 1. “Your brain is too little to understand this (finances)” 2. “It is good not to want too much in life” (said in the quilt- evoking way that suggested my being greedy - wen I’d have desires or dreams). I lived my life feeling inadequate, stupid and guilty. Playing small. I think I’m ready to change this...