"Have joined this class with a lot of hope and optimism"

I am at a point in my life where I have retired from my job in Information Systems and am looking for a career/hobby that will help me keep busy as well as earn some income. Reflecting on my life, I find that I have been unhappy and struggling all my life.. I have somehow survived so far but barely.. job issues (even though I have the highest levels of education), broken relationships, desertion.. was in give up mode. Then, working and reflecting on myself I realized that I had gone through a lot of abuse (in different forms) growing up and somehow have always expected that in life.. having gone through this painful realization, I wish to change my life pattern around.. forget and forgive and attract abundance in all areas of my life. I so not wish to salf sabotage any more and wish to attract security, stability, happiness. Have joined this class with a lot of hope and optimism.