"I am trying to bend my reality with respect to the relationship, and break away from 9 to 5 cycles"

I do have a good job, family, leisure, hobbies and health. It is routine with the same lifestyle for 20 years on a corporate 9/5 cycle.

I am trying to bend my reality with respect to the relationship, and break away from 9 to 5 cycles, exactly the way, I am visioning.