"I want to experience a life of waking up excited"

My name is Jonny. I'm 29. I'm a Project Manager as my day job but an Author, YouTuber, Podcaster, Coach and Mentor on the side. I really enjoy those things and have a great social life. I'm obsessed with personal growth and try and read a book a week. I've got a mentor and had coaches. However my struggles are in feeling abundance and gratitude. I constantly look into the future and fantasise - although I have achieved a lot in my life. Always wanting more and quite a lot of the time wake up with feeling down or anxiety, and it takes me a lot of work to feel ok or good. I'm generally very energetic and charismatic in front of others though. I love talking and would consider myself an extrovert. One area I struggle with is getting into relationships, even though I've dated a lot over my twenties but I've yet to get a committed relationship. I know that getting a relationship alone though won't make me happy I need to work on being happy first. I think this course will help me do this. I've done some subconscious work but I think Marisa's brilliance will allow me to go to the next level. I want to experience a life of waking up excited. I find being really happy a struggle. I know I have the power to change this, I just need the tools and habits in place. I feel this will give me that.