I know that this is the right step into starting my new journey

I have always been a little out there all my life. I have also touched many people's lives without even trying. I even brought back a friend who had left his body and couldn't find his way back. I was 18! He always introduces me as the girl who saved his life! I helped and healed my dad when I was only 3! I have been told so many times that I was a "HEALER" and didn't even know it. I know I have the ability to heal and help others. I feel with every fiber of my body that this is my purpose in life. How to fully get there and be intuned with my body, my brain, my soul, all at the same time - I am at a loss. I think I am close then it fades. My brain is just so busy! I have had so many obstacles in my life since I was born. Born with a hole in my heart, healed. Kidnapped. Died, Came Back. Physically and mentally abused. You name it! I have overcome all this and I am still able to stay awake and have love and compassion for all living things, and towards myself. I'm a little rough around the edges but still have a pure soul intact! I was told once that I was chosen before I was even born as a warrior that fought for good amongst the bad when the world ends. The bad knows who I am and they will keep trying to make my life hard until I give in and quit. So I don't quit! I turned off all these abilities to heal and help others when I was young. It was way to much for me at the time. Now I know that I need to start slowly turning it back on at 43. I feel this program will help me get there - my first step in the door. I need to learn to tap into that magical place far within me that is locked away because I am scared! I know that this is the right step into starting my new journey into helping heal and give strength to the world's' sufferers little by little. I feel that I am safe amongst all of you. That I can fit in and not be labeled but accepted for who and what I am. Please if you have any advise that could help me through my journey please, please share. Thank you.