I, myself use it more to understand myself and my own personal growth because I want to be better

I started this program a couple of months ago. I was very skeptical about it so I really didn't finish it. But since I had taken the program I saw some things that I really wasn't sure of. So, I decided to do this program all over again keeping an open mind about it. The reason why I was so skeptical about this program I've seen a lot of meditating and do bad things that did meditate and that kind of shape my life. Now when I pray to God of my understanding I do sit still and talk with them to me that is a form of meditation but I do not use it in a wrong way. I, myself use it more to understand myself and my own personal growth because I want to be better at what I do in the inner character so that all of my outer attributes would be an inner reflection of who I am. So this is why I am doing this over again.