"I am on a quest to heal my sadness after my mom passed away"

I am in the process of healing my wounded inner child from 3 alcoholic fathers and my mother I've learned was also an alcoholic. After my major abuse (10-16 yrs old) I took off running saying no man is going to starve or beat me. Had a great career and stayed active athletically. But after a staff infection (changing my life - now have a temporary shoulder replacement to last rest of life - so have physical limitations now). I am on a quest to heal my sadness after my Mom passed away. Just now learning how to identify my different emotions and where they are coming from. Also understanding my broken parents and the Wrong Beliefs I picked up. Now I am questioning my purpose in life and trying to gain back my energy and get rid of self doubt. Learn to accept & love myself and let go of past is main goal