"Along this course, there were so many aha moments"

I have been interested in meditation and other spiritual work for a very long time, but it seemed I didn’t understand it and have few benefits from the dozens of books I’ve read. I knew some of the (great and practical) techniques taught but managed to learn humbly, conscious that something was missing in my understanding. Other techniques were entirely new and I am using them diligently. Along this course, there were so many aha moments, as when I finally understood the role of gratitude. It’s incredible! I heard it so many times, knew it in detail for so long! Now I understand it, I feel it so clearly! The same about meditation, wow! Of course, my life is incredibly better, but most of it already WAS incredible. I was immersed in pains and fears, and could not feel the great life I already had! And so many good things are happening I am a little overwhelmed. Thank you!