"After devastating loss, she can envision a future again"

Well this is a long one.

Background:

I have always been a good manifester without knowing what that was. I was able to create a wonderful life for myself. I always wanted to live in a resort and work for myself. In spite of my family telling me it wasn't possible I ended up starting my own business and working in Bali and Tahoe. The sequence of events was perfect and haphazard. I created a successful jewelry company called Michou, met my husband Rick, and moved to Tahoe. When we had a son everything was moving along an amazing path. I created a school that supported the individual my son was and continued working with the goal of creating a future for him. He thrived and my family did as well.

Before:

In the summer of 2014 Lance, my son, was diagnosed with lymphoma and was gone in early November. I had moved my parents from NYC to Tahoe to take care of them. They both had dementia and could not stay in NY. My father was very ill and my mother had expressive ephasia and was unable to communicate. They both needed round the clock care. I was consumed with being their advocate, scheduling nurses, doctors, as well as coping with the loss of Lance. My father died in 2015 and then my mother in 2016. At the same time my partner in Bali passed and I had to re-calibrate there as well.

I fell into a new philosophy of life... there is no future so it really doesn't matter.

I was maintaining and working but was not fully conscious. I realized my body was not doing well and decided that I was eating to die and started working on that part of life. My business was difficult throughout Covid and was just recovering when I entered into a distributorship with a company in NY in 2024.

I had been seeing Mind Valley shares on FB and decided to take the 3 day manifesting mastery summit. At this point setting aside those 3 days was a major deal but it intrigued and drew me. I was so amazed at the thoughts and teachings that I decided that I would do the course and committed both financially and time wise.

Turning Point:

I actually wrote this in my journal after the fist session with Paul McKenna. I meant to upload it at that time.

I can envision a future!!

I have been in a dark place - losing so many aspects of my life - my health, Stephen (my acupuncturist who I saw monthly for 35 years), my counselor, my brother, Putu Indrah - (my partner in Bali), fighting a lawsuit for Papi and Mom, supporting them, losing Lance ( only son and child, losing parents... don't discount the animals that passed - Bear, Nita, Zac...especially Zac, Tres, Sakari Sal, Takoda, Dolce, Tikki and during Covid my sweet Pi in Bali.

Today was the first day I envisioned a future. The decisions made from 2014 through 2025 or maybe just now were survival choices with no regard for the future. I entered into a distributorship agreement, built a workshiop in Bali during Covid, leased properties. I have been in turmoil since Paul (my brother) died.

This morning after getting up, helping to carry Leo - my 165 lb. Leonberger (down from 195) who is 8 1/2 and can no longer walk on his own, I came back and did my meditation in bed. Fonzi - my cat - sat on me and purred. He helped me get in touch with this feeling...

I can have a future that is successful, happy, joyful, and honors who I am and who I am becoming.

I see myself with the perfect financial and creative partners, bringing my metaphysical project to life and letting the Universe figure out the best combination of Michou in the States, Mazu in creation, The Petanu and Eastern Trade Winds in Bali. I don't know how the Universe will make this all happen but for the first time in a long time I see where my future successful, joyful and happy self is and can bring that back to the present.

Thank you Vishen, Fran, Paul and everyone else on this journey with me.

Now:

I am continuing to work through the program and review as so much of the information still is being internalized. I have incorporated a lot of the techniques into my morning and evening practice, although not yet into the middle of the working days.

I am fully in the middle of chaos but more centered and conscious because of this program. I am looking forward to connecting with other people and have joined a group. I was happy to connect with Fran during one of the classes - by "chance" I got bad news and was unable to join the breakout room and Fran and I spoke when I came back.

I went back to working on the metaphysical project that I had started right before my brother died and it is expansive and exciting. I have big visions!

I am excited for the unfolding and reorganization of all the parts of my life.

I will continue to be a Mind Valley student and plan to do more mastery courses!

Well that is the end of my story except for my heartfelt gratitude to everyone.

Thank you Fran, Vishen, Paul, Regan, Rola, Sonia, David, Jillian, Shika, Luigi. Arlyn and everyone in the program holding and sharing this space.

What a transformational, uplifting experience.