“The challenge helped me see the childhood wound that made me fear success—and take my first step toward receiving again”

Breaking my wrist just before Christmas made me stay home for the holidays – and Vishen seven day webinar on the 7 Sacred States was like a special gift to make me feel less lonely. I listened very carefully from day to day but each day had the feeling that something is missing: I've practiced manifestation since childhood, long before I new what I was doing, yet I never succeeded in my life. The men left me, my friends turned away when I faced difficulties and couldn't keep a job – no matter how much I liked it and how successful I was. But I kept on joining the classes every evening and even listened to them while travelling long distance. I felt something was still waiting for me. Finally, on day 7, Vishen told his childhood story about feeling guilty for asking and receiving and I remembered how much I wanted a dog as a child but we lived in an apartment and my parents told me that is not a place for dogs. However, they let me having a dog at my grandmother's place in the countryside where there was a huge garden. But I couldn't move there, we had to live in the capital, so the dog I got at the beginning of the summer was taken away as the school started. It happened three years in a row until I didn't want to have a dog anymore. And as I remembered my story, I realised that must be the reason why I give up on things I most want and fear success as I am certain it will be taken away from me the moment I start being attached. Yet, I am the fighter-type and seem to win the first battle as I opened my heart once again to a fury friend – for a start. <3